Do I Really Need Relationships?

So much of the time I try to keep life from drowning me. So much of the time it is seconds from succeeding. I’ve lost the amount of times I’ve debated about taking a knife and ending it all. Because really life would go on just perfectly without me…but it’s not that simple. I’ve never…

Sarah…

When you spend most of your time at an university, you meet hundreds of people. Many of those people will touch you in some way. I met Sarah my sophomore year of college, and was instantly mesmerized. Sarah was a Resident Director, which meant she was in charge of a dorm full of girls. She…

That One Year Anniversary

The day has come! The one year anniversary of my aunt’s death. I have grown so much in this past year. I never thought I would make it after I lost her, but God’s grace has covered me my entire life. How could I have expected him to stop when she died? Mourning my aunt…

God Was Definitely With Me

I was heading into my shift at work on a rainy, Wednesday evening when I decided to call my aunt before I entered the kitchen. By this time, my aunt’s condition was improving, and it looked like she was going to be released to a rehabilitation place. The call was more so I could hear…

That Back Scratcher

I have so many journals and notebooks, and I have been trying to downsize (very difficult). I found one that had letter like journal entries. Those letters were written to my aunt after she died. I started a journal entry by writing about an object that reminded me of her instantly. I didn’t want to…

The day I called 911

I had just fallen asleep a few hours before when I heard my aunt yelling my name. I instantly heard the panic in her voice. I ran to to living room where she was bent over trying to get all the oxygen she could from her machine. Through the gasps of air she said, “Call…

My beloved Franklin

Is is weird to say that one of my greatest friends was a red footed tortoise? Maybe, but Franklin is more than just an animal. At first he meant so much because he was my mom’s. Of course when the ten year old Logan was asked if she wanted to keep her passed mother’s turtle it…

Tiffany Snyder

You are where you are because of God. Last semester I decided to take a leadership class, which also ended up being taught by someone other than who I thought, which I was so disappointed. It ended up being taught by Tiffany Snyder, who is this little, quirky, blonde person who barely looks old enough…

#nationalsuicideawarenessday

My last first week of classes at IWU is over, and it was incredibly difficult to get through. It wasn’t all bad , but most of it was. I am trying to cherish this semester because it is my last one at IWU, but in reality all I want to do is crawl in a…

Death is a Tricky Thing

We are just passing the three month marker of my aunt’s death. Lately it has been incredibly difficult to get up and be happy. I’m depressed more than not. Right now I am on my own living in a townhouse. This alone has put me in an environment I have not shared with my aunt….

By the Grace of God

By the grace of God I made it through watching a horrible disease kill my mom. By the grace of God I made it through three more deaths after that. And by the grace of God I will get through this. The Thursday before Easter I called 911 at 3:30 in the morning. As I waited…

You are BEAUTIFUL

I decided to binge watch Youtube videos of Sarah Rae Vargas, and this video came up(which everyone should watch at least once by the way). I decided to write a post about it. What is said in this video, I couldn’t say it any better. In this video, Sarah talks about the parts of her…